Thursday December 8

My senior year in high school I was voted "the quietest person" by my classmates. Somehwere in my stash from my past I sill have that copy of the school newspaper as proof :) However, the reality is that my not speaking to most people had nothing to do with them, but completely because of my own insecurity and inferiority complex.

God blessed me with a job at First National Bank. After several months on the job, I was still pretty much the flunkie, doing the jobs that no one else in the department wanted to do. There was some upheaval in the department, the bank brought in a new supervisor, who on her first day began to radically change the operations and the atmosphere of the entire department.

Here I was, horribly quiet, deep within my shell, doing the mundane jobs no one else wanted to do. But for some reason, God gave me favor with the new supervisor. She began to invest in me, train me, speak confidence into me. In a matter of months, I had been promoted beynod my seniors in the department, and yes with that promotion, my pay had drastically increased as well.

It was another one of those chapters in my life where all I was doing was trying to get through the moment - but beyond my perception, the Father was working in the details, working everything together for my good.

The Father used Carolyn Dowden to heal me of my insecurities. He allowed her to see in me something I did not see myself. He led her to speak words of healing and confidence into me at a very pivotal point of my life. The change He used her to help bring about in me led me to the place where I could dare to believe in what HE saw in me, and in what HE said I could become.

It's been too many years since I last told Carolyn "thank you" for being such a powerful agent of change and healing. It's been too long since I thanked the Father for His immense mercy in positioning me exactly where He knew I would receive the healing I so desperatley needed.

Father, today I thank You for working in my todays in preparing me for my tomorrows.
I thank You for ordering my steps in Your Word, and leading me down the paths and at the pace which is in my best interest. I thank You that even though I don't know why I am where I am at the moment, You are still leading me toward my destiny. Today I celebrate Your faithfulness!